1 year

:) :( mixed feelings.

10 August 2011 will be my 1st anniversary with work ( quote unquote the boss).

i dont feel i've accomplished much i guess. ppl envy me and the job coz of the value-addedness. *shrugs* probably true.

i've been to sooo many courses. i have lotsa work life balance. i've get to go to so many different industries including petroleum industries. i get to travel overseas to international meetings. im given a choice to further my studies.

i guess my co-workers envy me too, coz of the secondment in the organization. coz i get to report to different ROs. coz im lucky to get prosecution cases.

so much said, i'm not happy at all.

and i dont know why. or mayb i do. haiz.

I feel alone at times. Last saturday, the atmosphere at home was just stiffling, filled with unhappiness, as the folks were just venting their angers. i felt caught in between. I needed a breather-outside.

The following are the people who i could potentially go out with:
Sister-Not in Singapore
Bestie-Occupied with the usual weekend committments
Bestie2-Tired after sending bf to airport.
Friend-the reply:"dont think i can go out tonight"

In the end, I was alone. I wanted to go out with someone just to have a breather. no one i could think of was available. it was just saddening. times like these when i just need some form of support( in this case physical appearance) seems so impossible.  the worst thing is... i didnt know where to go at all! i happened to spot a RWS $25 voucher at home. Took it and decided to spend it. Hence, I went to Sentosa alone on a saturday evening. haiz.

Didnt know what to do or how should i spend the voucher when i reached the island. =/ i just walked and spotted an icecream parlor, bought a scoop, found a seat near the casino and started to people-watched. Most of the time was spent on queueing for the rail to get back to main island. i think it took abt 45 mins?

i felt so pathetic yea. i guess this is just my life.

:(