when a girl has gone through all she needs in life in just 12 months..

she doesn't know how to start this post.

many times, people just simply tell me to just let time heal all wounds. i do understand where they are coming from and they know that this is the only solution since they have probably gone through it?

I really tried my best to let time be my healing hands. but then it still feel so wei qu, especially when people can tell that im down even though i have already tried my best to get back to life. it feels so wei qu that u need to put up a strong front cos you don't want someone to think that you are weak and you can't handle it. you need to put up this strong front cos no one must know this ugly truth and you must pretend that it cannot exist. u feel so wei qu cos you feel that u r suffering alone even though it shouldn't be the case.

I never at all one time blame and hated someone for all this unhappiness. I can't bear to blame him. I really still wish the best for him. I prayed to God the nights before his exam papers so that he will be able to do well and that God will bless him.

Actually, i don't know why am i still giving him benefit of doubt that all the blocking of msn was not out of ruthlessness. probably he needed his peace and quietness that he will get by blocking me. Mayb i was his source of distraction? tmr is his last day of exams, will my benefit of doubt for his behaviour ends then? im really afraid to face this moment of truth that he is a heartless guy and not sentimental one i know anymore.

all i ask for is to be there for him whenever he's unhappy. that's all.

period.

this is dedicated to my sgbb.